Lets move on!!

My memories are precious... priceless... and are my real treasures!!

These memories are my paradise and in this paradise ... I treasure some people...!! In fact they only helped me create these wonderful memories...!! We spent a lot of time together...and enjoyed every moment of it!! Life to the fullest...in true sense...!!

Now they have moved on... to follow their own destiny... to create their own world...!! So our lives have taken different course...!! But I have yet not accepted it...!!

I need to understand that the time that we spent together was NO investment. It was our destiny... of co-existing... and exploring life...!! At that time... we were very important for each other... but now times have changed... situations have changed... and I, too, have changed...!! So if everything has changed... how can I still expect the same old times...??
I distanced myself from all of them... that is the truth...!! Then how can I expect my old place in their lives?? I bargained... life for life...!! And I got what I wanted... but in this process I lost some part of my life...!! I can’t have best of both worlds... and I chose this one world for me...!! Then why to grieve?? Why this frustration?? This frustration is causing a lot of turbulence in my life...and uneasiness...!! ...definitely a lot of negative energy and thoughts too!!

Life is much bigger than all this and I need to outgrow these.

I don’t want to have painful thoughts that overshadow all my happy remembrances!! I really don't want to spoil those moments...that we spent together!! Those moments are still untouched...pious and complete!!

I need to get mature... and move on...!!

I need peace...!! My mind would be at peace only when I move on. I can't always be torn between conflicting emotions... and feel sad for things that are trivial.

I am sad!!

I want to scream... scream real loud...!! I feel suffocated...!! Actually I feel like a bird in a golden cage. It might sound quite melodramatic but it is rather the truth.

Girl’s education... girl’s career... liberalization... everything is hypocrisy. And the saddest part is that we, girls, are equally hypocrites. We have set boundary to our own freedom. We have restricted the horizon of our own dreams.

We feel obliged to people for letting us do our jobs... for having a career... for being allowed to speak...!! We are thankful even for things that are our fundamental right... dreams... ambition... happiness...!!

We are free... just that we cannot aspire beyond a limit..!!
We have a career... till it doesn’t clashes with family interest..!!
We dream... as long as society approves of it..!!
We are independent... what if even our trivial decisions are discussed over and over again!!
We smile... because we have been allowed to..??
And still we claim we are happy... is it really...??

I am not bothered with the so-called society... moral polices. But it cuts through my heart to see that we give in... So easily...!! Why?

Your Choice!!

There is no use repenting about it now. Time has already gone.

You made a choice and that is how you have reached here. If you feel that you made a mistake by the choice, then pause and think and think very carefully. There is a big lesson to be learnt. It reflects that you did not think rationally and logically when you made that choice.

It means that you get influenced easily and you react at the spur of the moment. So if this is the case then this result is useful in your best interest. It will give you a lesson, a rather important lesson to be remembered always. So that when you take the next big decision in your life, you will weigh all your options intelligently.

But if you feel, deep down in your heart, that you would have taken the same decision again if put in the same circumstances, then move on. Do not feel bad because of these temporary downs. You should view the bigger picture. Always remember, when you want to tread a new path, there definitely would be obstructions, but you have never feared to be alone.

Remember, you have always chosen the difficult option. You have taken the courage to be DIFFERENT and think DIFFERENT. So now be brave and boldly face the consequences of your own decisions.